I have walked through some of the darkest years of my life alone, so I thought. I have experienced brokenness and have been completely overwhelmed I was afraid to move. To think the next thought, I might fall apart. I have thought more times that I want to admit, that I just can’t just make it through another day through my illness. I hold it all together for myself, my husband, and more than anything for my kids.I know I am not alone, because I know that someone is reading this right now saying that they know these feelings too.
No matter where I have been in this journey, I have learned that all of those feeling are only temporary even if they come back after a while. God has always sent help my way.
It may have been an encouraging word from a nurse, or something I read, or sending someone my way to bring a word of grace, but he has always provided what I needed.
I have to look for God even in the smallest of things. He is always doing something. I know the closer that I walk with God, the more Satan will try to detour me. He certainly doesn’t want me to rise above my problems and he doesn’t want me to get close to my Heavenly Father.
What Satan doesn’t realize is the very tool that he thought would make me turn on God has brought me even closer. The sickness and the hardships of my life has made me put total dependency on God, instead of myself or someone else.
David wrote in Psalms 23,” Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for you are with me.”