Sometimes I feel like giving up.
Sometimes I just want to jump in a hole and cover myself up! Satan has a way to make me feel worthless. It’s not always easy to fight 24/7. Sometimes I feel like giving up.
The only way I can verbally explain most of my life is, it has been a balancing act. I had to stay in survival mode growing up and now as an adult I struggle with Lupus surviving.
Satan knows all of those negative things that I have fought against, and he knows how to use the past to put doubt in my mind.
Lupus may be the biggest fight in my life. Lupus carries a fear in itself, and I can’t get away from it.
We all have our own personal struggles, and we all have our own past situations that we struggle with. So, what do we do?
I literally have to run back and forth to Jesus daily, sometimes every hour. That’s my only relief. He is all I have.
If you love somebody, that’s what makes you strong.
We all want to be strong but what if being strong means first you have to be weak? What if being strong means you will need someone to help you be strong? What if becoming strong means being vulnerable and trusting someone!
This past week I had some tests at Mayo Clinic that revealed new conditions that are linked to my Lupus disease that I wasn’t quite ready to hear. I may be facing several surgeries for serious unexpected findings. I am not saying that I am not afraid, I am not saying that I am not praying for a miracle, what I am saying is that I trust God and even if this ends up in a way that I don’t want, He is still all I have!
Trusting God is being vulnerable to Him, it’s unconditional, it’s trusting Him in whatever He does, it’s ok, even if it’s NOT what we want.
Needing to be strong means letting someone, that includes God, to help you be strong even if it means becoming weak soomeone can or God can help you be strong. The best thing I ever did was learn to be weak with God, so that he could make me strong. I know that He is all that I have!
Paul said in 2 Corinthians 12: 9, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Stop fighting, stop flexing your mental muscles and admit your weaknesses. Then God will be your strength.
#Bestrong #God #love
Last weekend Florida was faced with the biggest storm we could imagine. It was bigger than the entire state, and I was sure that my home state of Florida would be wiped off the map. Then, at the last moment, the storm that was a category 5 went to a category 1. Although, the storm claimed precious lives and many have lost their homes, created flooding and massive devastation, and so many have lost power for days, I still recognize that it could have been worse than it was.
My heart breaks for those who have suffered and for the millions who are still suffering from the affects of the storm.
It’s not easy to face a big storm coming in. You know it’s going to hit but exactly where and how hard is the question. Nobody really knows, as we all saw watching the weather channel. But I have seen through the humanitarian efforts in Texas and Florida, God still moves in hearts and in people’s lives. Neighbors come together and strangers reach out to help someone else when they are suffering the affects as well.
If I have learned one thing in my life, it’s that there are going to be storms that come, and knowing that, I have to be prepared but I can’t waste my time just waiting for the next one to hit. I have to live my life and put my mark on this earth.
There are going to be unknowns in life, just like the past Hurricanes but at the end of the day God has a plan. Maybe for some it’s a change.
This week as I think about things unfolding in my own life, I have so many unknowns right now. I know in my heart that the best thing that I can do is allow God to take control, even if it looks like it’s going to be a disaster. God can change it all with one swift wave of his hand, if I just trust in him.
Talk is cheap!
There are two kinds of Christians; Christians that just simply talk about loving Jesus, and people that love and live their life for Jesus. I have been both at one time or another in my life time. About eight years ago, I was a bench warmer in my church. I went to church every Sunday and my family and I filled the pew. I clocked in and I clocked out. I didn’t bother to read the scripture during the week, I simply relied on the pastor’s message. Sunday was the only day that I gave to God and it ended right there. Unfortunately, that also showed in my life.
Evangelical Christians are people that love and live their life for Jesus. They spend time getting to know who God is by reading the word throughout the week. They are ready for when the opportunity opens up to share what Jesus has done for them. They live their life by example.
Unfortunately, we have way too many Christians that just talk about loving Jesus and not enough Christians that are actively pursuing Jesus and are looking for opportunities to share what God has done and what He can do.
As for me I choose to live my life for God and show that I love him by grabbing every opportunity to share what God has done for me. If God can see me through the life that I have had, I am more than happy to share with someone else.