Why not me?

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Why me? I have struggled with this question a lot throughout my life. Why did I have to have the parents that I had, abusive in every since of the word? Why did I have to have the dysfunctional family that I grew up with? Why did I have to spend a good portion of my childhood in foster care. Why did I have to get sick? Why did I have to lose my job? Why can’t I go and do as I please like so many other people do in this world? WHY, WHY, WHY?

Life is not always fair but I do believe that everything happens for a reason and God always has a plan, even if I don’t see it. I know He did not cause me to have the past that I have and He did not make me sick; that is just a product of living in a fallen world. So, where does God fit in the grander scheme of life? He is my source, my rescuer, my comforter, my healer. God heals in many ways, that is something that I have come to realize.

Not so long ago, I had been going through a particularly tough day and I had come to my breaking point when I asked God one last time, WHY ME?

It felt like an avalanche was coming down on me since I had found out that I was sick with Lupus. It was one thing after the other and the bad news wasn’t letting up. I was tired of the unfairness of life in itself.

That day, I asked God, why me? I didn’t expect the answer that I got back. Why Not YOU?  I had been so wrapped up in the unfairness of life, that I had forgotten that God can use every situation in my life to show His power.

Paul states in 2 Corinthians 12: 7-9 ESV, “…a thorn was given to me in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to harass me, to keep me from becoming conceited. Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”

Paul wanted this torment to end but Jesus told Him “My power is made perfect in weakness…” Then Paul says something very strange and foreign to our intellect, “…Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” (2 Corinthians 12: 9 ESV) Paul actually considered himself to be in the right place at the right time with an infirmity that was going to make him stronger. In fact, Paul goes on to say, “For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” (2 Corinthians 12: 10 ESV)

Although, I cannot equate everyone’s situation and illnesses to mine, I can say for me that God’s grace is sufficient for my needs. When I am faced with the why me, I will stop and ask Why not me?

How far would I be willing to go, to share Jesus with others? I could choose to stay in the why me or I could move forward and be in the why not me?  I am not signing up to be sick, but since these things are a part of my life, I am willing to use my weaknesses as a testimony to share with the world, my Heavenly Father’s Love, grace and mercy. I am willing to be open and real about my life experiences and share as I go through this journey with others. I am far from perfect, I stumble and I fall just like everyone else, but at the end of the day I remember that I have a Savior no matter what I am facing.

Every day is a huge cross to bear for me, but I can either ask why me or I can take up my cross and follow HIM. And that is the song I will sing until I go to meet my Father in a perfect place, where there is no sickness or dying. His grace is sufficient for me, for His power is made perfect in my weakness.

 

 

 

9 comments on “Why not me?”

  1. Yesterday, I read about a Christian who worked for the church and had many degrees from university. Now he is retired. His life seemed full of one good job after another.

    Tears came to my eyes, because to me, my life has been so messy, filled with sadness and sickness. But I remembered how God had shown me not to envy the seemingly wonderful lives of other prople. So I do thank him for my life. Yes, there has been great pain, but also great beauty.

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    1. I do understand your feelings as mine has been messy from the day I was born. I was born a product of a rape and my life was broken throughout my childhood.
      God has made me who I am from scattered pieces. He is all the hope that I have had. I try to look at others that had a great life all of their life as they were blessed and that is wonderful but I am blessed too, because I have a greater appreciation for smaller blessings. I have worked through pain and I am stronger in my faith because it was just me and God. I agree with you, through great pain there is great beauty.

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  2. This is very moving, but God works in unusual ways. Sometimes it’s the only way He can get our attention, especially if we’re the strong, stubborn type. He only gives us what we can handle, but He pushes us to the edge sometimes to reveal our strength and change our path for His plans. Why not?

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    1. Thankyou so much! Lol, you must know me well. “Strong, stubborn type.” Yes I do agree with you completely on all accounts. I can attest for that in many areas in my life that he has done that. He also pushes us to the edge just so that we have to reach out for him because the strong, stubborn type hates to admit they need help at times.

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  3. ❤ This makes every single bad day worthwhile. If I can give hope to one single soul it’s worth everything to me! I spoke at a church last Sunday and I said almost the exact same thing and I thought it was worth putting it in writing this morning. I am so happy you are back in! If you ever need a friend please please don’t hesitate to message me, I get my messages instantly. I will be praying for you as well.

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