Today I am at the cancer center for a six hour iron infusion. I will sit in a chair, hooked up to iv with iron pumping into my body. This will give me a little bit of energy for a little while. This is my reality with chronic illness. Most days when I go out into the public I make an effort to look my best, makeup to cover the dark circles under my eyes, hair straightened and sprayed into place, a smile on my face, covering up the ravage that my illness has done to my body. No one would guess just by looking at me that I have been bedridden for weeks, that the pain that I have on a day to day basis might put a normal healthy person into the fetal position and these are my “good” days. Today. I am sharing the real me. Reality of chronic illness.
What are you thankful for?
Today is day 7 of the #Thankfulness Challenge. While my health hasn’t been the best lately, and things on the surface may look scary and somewhat hopeless, I realize in my spirit there is always hope and my perspective on things can change my circumstances. So, I am challenging others and myself to look deeper and find an # Attitude of Gratitude this month.
Today I am thankful that,God leads my way, he is my light!
Attitude of Gratitude
Adopting an attitude of gratitude and recognizing the things that we are most grateful for isn’t just something that sounds nice at Thanksgiving — it’s a lifestyle and mindset that can change our lives.
For changes to happen in our life, we have to decide to change. If we wait for something to shift and change on its own we might find ourselves disappointed when nothing changes. In order to make a switch we must make a decision for change. If we practice being proactive to change, we switch our mindsets. When our mindsets change we change our circumstances.
Gratitude is stress reliever.
Adopting an attitude of gratitude takes us out of the negativity that surrounds us on a day to day basis and puts us in a correct frame of mind. When we have a different mind-set, we find solutions to day to day problems. When a problem is in front of you try to find the silver lining in every situation; What can I learn from this?
Gratitude and a good attitude is contagious.
I can’t speak for everyone, but I don’t like being around unpleasant, negative, or sarcastic people. I find many times that my mood can set the scene in a room whether it be good or bad. If I am grateful and happy it tends to be contagious to others around me and create a positive energy. Of course, the opposite is true as well, if we have a downcast face or a bad attitude that tends to set the mood in a room. Watch your words. What you say is usually how you act, so be aware of complaining and replace whines with positive words. Be aware of your body language and smile even if you don’t feel like it. You can change your attitude and the people around you by simple body language and excitement in your voice. Let’s start with ourselves, we must be the change and watch the world change around us.
Let me get real honest right now, if I looked at the big picture of the last 3 years, I might find myself getting overwhelmed. Instead my way of handling things is by taking things a little at a time. The last couple of weeks, I have spent some time at the Mayo Clinic in Jacksonville. I have undergone various tests and the doctors have a few new diagnosis for my stomach troubles that I have been having because of mixed connective tissue disorder. I finally have an answer as to what is going on with my stomach. Yesterday, I met with a surgical physician, thinking that I was going to end up having an open surgery on my abdomen, when the physician did an exam and found that I have a floating rib that is impinging a nerve. The doctor suggested a nerve block to help with the pain in my side. Although it will not take care of all of my stomach issues, it is one step closer to having less pain. I believe that God was a big part of this, and it wasn’t by chance that the physician found the problem.
I can’t say that I don’t ever start to lose hope, because the feelings of hopelessness does come over me at times, I just choose not to stay there. I have had to face many scary health diagnosis over the last three years and I have had a few brushes with death but even through all of that I try really hard to keep my head up. I know who is in control of my life, I know God is on my side and I know that He can use these doctors to help get my quality of life back. I can’t put all of my hope in the Mayo Clinic and the doctors but God has opened the doors for me to get the care I need. I know that God can work through the physicians to help me and I have complete faith that he will provide answers and the healing that I need. Sickness is not from God, it is a product of this world. I’m going to follow God because He knows how my healing is going to come.
The Bible says that faith is not seeing, it is believing, I choose to live that path.
Like many people, I have watched the Las Vegas massacre unfold almost daily in the media. My heart goes out to the families and the victims of this horrible and senseless act of hatred. As an American, I can’t imagine being at an open concert and ever giving a second thought about the terror that happened that night. Unfortunately, we will all have to think of these scenarios from now on as our carefree freedom is slowly being attacked by domestic or foreign terrorists that simply have no sanctity of life. Those kinds of people have no hope, they do not have God and they care nothing of the sacredness of life.
The commonality with other attacks such as this one is, it is now a norm to fear public spaces. Each time one of these senseless acts of terrorism happens people are inundated with a little bit more fear. I learned a long time ago, that there is nothing to fear except for fear itself. In this case what that means is if we begin to fear going out into public spaces we will stop living. Once you start fearing like that, you become paralyzed, if society as a whole is gripped with fear we will no longer be living in a nation built on freedom, we will be prisoners to the next senseless act of terrorism.
I stand with my country regardless of the internal bickering that seems dominate the media’s attention. I will exercise my right for freedom to enjoy life, to live and serve Jesus Christ. I will not live in fear of the things in this life, however I will be mindful of my surroundings. I will not allow the enemy to win by creating fear of living my everyday life.