I am convinced, now more than ever, that my childhood prepared me for this battle of illnesses that, simply put, is trying to kill me physically as well as mentally. I have struggled with so many illnesses in the last three years, every time I go to the doctor it seems there is just more diagnosed illnesses on top of what I already have. It should be overwhelming for me and perhaps I should be sitting in a corner sucking my thumb, rocking back and forth, but I am actually at peace. I want to share how I am able to handle and process these things that have been happening to me.
Attitude of Gratitude
For changes to happen in our life, we have to decide to change. If we wait for something to shift and change on its own we might find ourselves disappointed when nothing changes. In order to make a switch we must make a decision for change. If we practice being proactive to change, we switch our mindsets. When our mindsets change we change our circumstances.
Sometimes I feel like giving up.
Sometimes I just want to jump in a hole and cover myself up! Satan has a way to make me feel worthless. It’s not always easy to fight 24/7. Sometimes I feel like giving up.
The only way I can verbally explain most of my life is, it has been a balancing act. I had to stay in survival mode growing up and now as an adult I struggle with Lupus surviving.
Satan knows all of those negative things that I have fought against, and he knows how to use the past to put doubt in my mind.
Lupus may be the biggest fight in my life. Lupus carries a fear in itself, and I can’t get away from it.
We all have our own personal struggles, and we all have our own past situations that we struggle with. So, what do we do?
I literally have to run back and forth to Jesus daily, sometimes every hour. That’s my only relief. He is all I have.
Living with brain fog.